heres your ring

        

the ring

I get asked sometimes about my ring I wear .

I bought a green ring to wear for my son actually , a memorial for my son Matthew.  got it july2015

Some may not understand meaning of it . and why I wear it on my ring finger. As I have never been married, but I usually don't restrict myself to how things are suppose to be and why people do things a certain way, as if you read any on guidedbyMatthewGordonDavis@ blogspot or know me personally its easy to figure that out. everything I do has meaning to me , and I don't need, nor do you need to hold yourselves to what society tell you what helps you after a lose of a love one. You do what you need. or what helps you.

One interesting thing about the ring and the ring finger and resonate with me  about them is , the ring being a circle has no end. 

The circle has a universal definition = original perfection, the infinite, timeless eternity, completeness hence that is the love I have for him, that it is infinite, its timeless, I will for eternity love him. as he is original perfection.

 The Egyptians wore their rings on their forth finger, because they believed that it was a direct path to the heart. They called it vena amoris , meaning vein of love. 

so me wearing a ring for him makes sense.

Around Matthews birthday, in the fall, I woke up one morning to notice the ring I got for him was GONE, as most people I franticly started looking everywhere, the floor , under beds ,in cars, at my work, the  cemetery. borrowed a metal detector .   I even took apart drains in sinks, nowhere to be found it was just vanished. ever weekend for weeks maybe months I would do another search. finally I bought another one exactly the same , but if you have ever lost a ring, or something that had meaning , the replacement just doesn't have that feeling or the emotions behind it. but I wore it anyways, but still felt the replacement just didn't have the energy the meaning the original had. 

The 1 year date came up. I took off work, to go to the  cemetery. It was not a good day. Security guards at cemetery know me well, as I  went there a lot  as I still go there a lot. They already knew id be there open to close. they sent flowers and stopped by , as did his siblings and his siblings family did . their aunts, and grandparents .  Midday I went to the office of cemetery, to get a drink and sign some stuff, when the lady at the desk noticed my ring. she said! that's a unusual ring, and asked did you have another like it ever? I teared up and said yes , I once had one,  she looked stunned  not of me crying, but she was like you wont believe this BUT  she saidjust yesterday before closing a lady came in while planting flowers that day, near his marker she found a  green ring. she just set it on the counter, and said someone most likely has been looking for this, she turned around and walked out .. the worker said  let me see if I can find where the receptionist put it,  she was walking back with a tissue wiping something, as she walked to me.. I ask or at least said to her mine had 3 scratches on it from my work. she held it out ,  my emotions elevated as I reached out,exactly like my green ring 3 scratches..Its my RING! Turned my day around instantly

Immediately took off the replacement ring and put Matthews original one on. I could feel the difference the energy, it was like  electricity. .. the receptionist asked when I lost it as people out of curiosity was listening I said 6 months ,lost it  last fall!  I then  asked what did the lady look like who brought it in ... she said a gray haired lady wearing glasses with a smirky smile and walked with a lil limp. she described my mom, who passed 30 days after Matthew.  She knew I wondered and was concerned about who does he know on other side who was with him , cause I needed to know he wasn't alone on the other side, as much as I needed her here for me, she knew I needed her more somewhere else. I mean who else beside me would I entrust my son too. At least before I can once again reunite with him myself.. he loved his mamaw.  the night before she passed away she told a nurse at the nursing home  she heard trumpets and was being called home .The nurse blew it off as mom was there for her inability to walk  . but  she was concerned because she told her nurse" my son  needs her", (I will share what happened the night  on another post)..she passed that night , heart failure,  I believe with ever part of my being she showed up, when I needed her too. She knew on a bad day for me that finding that ring would help me see the light on a dark day for me ,and to show me   loved ones will show up, death is a transformation, they are never truly gone  .. so one thing I do know ... You never stop being a parent. Loved ones are always around, even when you don't see it. 

I prayed asked for my ring , and the universe delivered in a amazing way.. god don't have restrictions  the universe goes beyond what we can comprehend . just allow it to work.. the bright green ring does 2 things it keeps Matthews ring from falling off and it glows in the dark. so when its dark out I'm reminded of the light.. his light always shows up .

thanks for reading and letting me share.  share and repost please as this may help someone .